2004-03-08 - 11:47 p.m.

how to be a moody painter
it's easy! and fun! and inexpensive!
amuse your friends and terrify your neighbors!

1. have disturbing dreams about burning down middle earth.
2. wake up late. go to therapy session where you surmise that the parttime job you enjoy is drifting from your reach.
3. wait in freezing rain for bus to parttime job.
4. manic sleepless parttime supervisor tells you there is no more money. take the subway home.
5. have hypochondriac anxiety attack.
6. walk to your studio in the freezing rain. briefly reconsider giving up coffee for lent, but resist the holy bean's siren song in the end.
7. paint for two hours while listening to obituaries for spalding gray.
8. drink too much black tea and sulk to chess club.
9. lose several consecutive games of chinese chess to the only other person who shows up.
10. go home and let grief tow you under to sleep.
11. realise it is only monday, and that the week is almost guaranteed to get better.