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2003-03-14 - 9:13 a.m.

sometimes a nervous breakdown sneaks up on you out of nowhere and bites deep into your skin like a parasite. things shift and everything is not where it was before. disoriented, people seem wicked. anxiety blows like an ill wind. your heart beats tight in your chest. you are inconsolable.

sometimes you realise the truth in a flash and the truth is so overpowering and painful that its hard to adapt to. it feels as if your skin is being peeled off. your middle is hollow with imagined pain. you almost cry at songs on the radio.

at these times, its very hard to think into the future. it won't always feel like this. you will adapt. plans will be made, feelings will be sorted, it won't last forever.

a broken heart is the only one that can hold all the love.